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Jun. 7th, 2005 01:49 amOh, my fucking gods . . .
Composite satellite photo of the Earth at night
*shiver*
*shudder*
I cannot even begin to describe the sheer revulsion this image invokes in me. Just . . . looking at it makes my gorge rise. (Not that that's difficult, but that's not relevant.)
And there's nowhere that's safe. A few interior deserts are as close as it gets. Just . . . that ugliness as far as human eyes can see.
Gods. How can we be so stupid? Of all the things I've seen in the past ten years, honestly, even more than the personal human cruelties and the idiocy of war . . . this makes me feel the most hopeless about our future as a species. How could we possibly do that to the world?
Are we so deeply in thrall to the Light that we cannot leave blessed darkness anywhere?
Now I'm seriously tempted to buy a gun and learn to use it, if only to try and fight that, one lightbulb at a time . . .
Composite satellite photo of the Earth at night
*shiver*
*shudder*
I cannot even begin to describe the sheer revulsion this image invokes in me. Just . . . looking at it makes my gorge rise. (Not that that's difficult, but that's not relevant.)
And there's nowhere that's safe. A few interior deserts are as close as it gets. Just . . . that ugliness as far as human eyes can see.
Gods. How can we be so stupid? Of all the things I've seen in the past ten years, honestly, even more than the personal human cruelties and the idiocy of war . . . this makes me feel the most hopeless about our future as a species. How could we possibly do that to the world?
Are we so deeply in thrall to the Light that we cannot leave blessed darkness anywhere?
Now I'm seriously tempted to buy a gun and learn to use it, if only to try and fight that, one lightbulb at a time . . .
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Date: 2005-06-07 07:26 am (UTC)under my covers, trembling.
I would hold the flashlight and watch,
as the bulb got dimmer,
and dimmer,
and dim. . .
I was afraid of the dark. I didn't know why.
The batteries would always fade before morning, leaving me alone.
That's what it was!
Alone.
I was afraid of being alone, because I didn't like myself.
Now I light my home with a few flourescent bulbs. Each room lit with as little power as that little bulb I clung to as a child. I often turn even those few lamps off after dinner. What was I afraid of?
What is everyone else afraid of?
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Date: 2005-06-07 07:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-07 02:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-07 02:20 pm (UTC)6,446,301,005
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"I'd like to share a revelation that I've had, during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species. I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment, but you humans do not. You move to an area, and you multiply, and multiply, until every natural resource is consumed. The only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet, you are a plague..."
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Date: 2005-06-07 03:17 pm (UTC)I think it's pretty myself, but then, I think humanity is the best part of Earth.
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Date: 2005-06-07 07:50 pm (UTC)That I don't is, I suspect, just another way in which I'm grossly abnormal. The best I can think of it is that it's a grotesque parody of a starfield . . .
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Date: 2005-06-07 09:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-08 04:23 am (UTC)The worst part is when the lights cover the moon. When I measure the waxing and waning of the moon by seeing which city is covered in shadow. . .
a long walk...
Date: 2005-06-08 02:22 am (UTC)I have walked out in rain - and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
O luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
By Frost